Journey to Tie My Shoes

Well my sweet readers, it’s the day of surgery. I have much to share already but time is not available. I will catch you up when I can. Soon. Your prayers are appreciated. Today’s hope: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Sleep has evaded my nights for weeks. Going to bed was useless. Anxiety, excitement, impatience, and restlessness tossed me in and out of my warm blanket. My list of to do, my list of what not to do, and my need for quiet time and prayer competed for their proper place in my anticipated day.  Here we are the day before surgery. It's been 9 months of preparing physically, emotionally, mentally, financially, and spiritually. A smile dons my face and it's a giddy one. No fear but readiness. Pain is anticipated and I am ready to work through it. Discipline and practice of all learned has been committed to mind. Life after today will be arduous and exhausting but a day will come when the routine, healthy habits, and tools will be common place. Regrets, fails, and discouragements will be met with a personal and spiritual resolve to give myself grace and move forward. Will I cry, complain, and whine? Most likely but it will be short lived. I made this choice. I was given this oppor...

It's been a long weekend. Not much to report re: the amazing liquid diet. It is boring but necessary. I learned that I can reduce my protein shakes after a call to my surgeon's nurse. I am able to add dry protein collagen packets to my soups, drinks, and yogurt to meet my protein needs. I have done well to stay liquid but I have failed to monitor the calories, protein, and carb gram intake. I have stayed within 900-1600 calories overall. I wasn't required to track these nutrition amounts but I wanted to. I wanted to stay authentic to the plan. The reason for neglect is I am in the nesting phase prior to surgery.  I don't know and haven't read about a nesting phase prior to weight loss surgery but it is a familiar phase I remember well. I feel the same about preparing for my homecoming after surgery as I did when I was preparing to bring home my newborn sons.  Small projects, cleaning, organizing, and holiday prep have been on my list of to dos and accomplishm...